my messed up life...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Im really not sure about what is going on to me. Im just getting more and more moody, and Im really regretting my decision in everything. My decision to stop my dance lessons and other lessons when Im young. I just hate myself, why must I give up so easily?? I regret not following my own heart, why did I choose this group?? Who am I to them?? Im just nothing to them, just a rotten apple to them!!! But is this the reason for my change for this two weeks?? Im going crazy!! Can I find back the old Kaiying?? This is just not me!!

Candy empire seems to need more people, one of my colleague have already work for a continuous of 10 plus days. I feel much better when Im working, I can forget about all this stuffs, and I begin to get use of working there.

I finally bought my first metoyou bear. Although it seems really weird to buy a bear for myself as the wording are strange, but I really like it :) At least this bear makes me happier.

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dreaming;
11:27 AM;

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Reealy feeling moody this few days, but I duno what is the exact reason for being so moody. Really have to apologise to mum, I really didnt mean to treat her so coldly, I also dont know the reason for my such behaviour. Went to Westmall with JKP for lunch, but ended up buying lots of stuffs. Each of us bought a Bf shirt, and i added a T-shirt from korea and a necklace which I really like a lot. Been spending alot on sprees and stuff, going broke. A great thing is I got my pay for this month, really happy :) But heard a sad news that another girl going to be sacked again, not sure if it is true. Hope I find the real me!

dreaming;
11:48 PM;

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Its been a long time since I blogged... School started le, fourth day of school. In IFA lecture, struggling to stay awake :P I really duno how long I coud survive with all the school work. Going to work weekends, and attend school at the same time, I really need enuff strength to survive. I have to admit Im getting old - forgettful, and weak :P Went for my first lesson of dancing on Monday. Itwas tiring but fun :) I like it. Been spreeing alot these days, spend $120 plus over on spreeing, and lots of money on shopping. Going BROKE!!! the lecturer still on Pg 5 only despite the fact that 1 hr 20 mins plus have passed. Slow Slow Slow... Boring Boring Boring.. Bleahxx

dreaming;
3:51 PM;